I've been staring at the screen for quite a while now, and I still haven't found a good title for the blog post I was preparing to make. And then, I thought, I'm just gonna do a friggin brain dump, why do I have to spend more time thinking for a title?
I get signals right before my period, which includes a justifiable bitchiness - bitchy, but tolerable - right before I'm about to have that day of the month. While moodiness is something I know I'm capable of controlling - and I believe a woman can rise above her own limit and fight the hormone change during one's period - I always get a nasty cold a week or two before my red letter day. My nose is running *chase chase* and I'm slightly feverish. (No, you didn't infect me with viruses honey. It wasn't you.)
Which is cool, because I'm used to it, if it weren't for my finals tomorrow. This sem is a make-or-break period for me. Tripping out-of-school for 2 years isn't that much fun when I start counting against my target goals. And I wanted, so wanted, to be finished with school as fast as I can. Translation: I'm back at this friggin' state university so I could get a diploma - pretty much the same way that hotdogs wants to become a hotdog by finally get their own brand. I'm a sausage, a defect sausage, waiting to be processed in this government-forsaken school so I could have my seal of excellence. As a sausage with partial defects, I need to make sure I'm doing good in all my subjects right now because I literally am hanging by a thread and, f* if I screw again this time, I'll go kill myself or die, whichever comes first. I am a defect sausage, yes! But I will be a branded one nonetheless. I hope, I wish. F* this retardation. (I apologize for ranting, I am not myself. It's this stupid annoying cold. Ids nod munny enimor.)
So where was I? Ah, the distress of the last day of the friggin' finals. I've got two exams tomorrow, the first one's so early in the morning and I'm not well prepared - bordering on unprepared, even. And then right after that, a whole 5 hours of idle time to myself. I was hoping I'd be spared from insanely long breaks, even just for this last day, but no. Even the finals schedule was arranged so that it will be inconvenient for me. The world is conspiring against me (despair *echo*). No seriously, it's okay. I'd use the vacant time to finish up my journal and then I'd happily wait and prepare for the next exam. But I still think it's(having a 5 hour break) crazy.
I've also been preoccupied about my Maria Kurenai cosplay. It's not complete yet and I want it to be at least 90% accurate. There's Hio Shizuka's sword, Maria's violet eyes (though the manga is black and white), and the chocolate brown boot. And then there's this dress-up sideline I'd be doing for LU Live on Saturday (and Sunday, if ever). I'll be wearing a kimono. Yey. And then I'd be doing a Fate/ Stay Night group cosplay with my friends at a not-so-near con. And I haven't started on it yet. This cosplay thing is actually fun. Wait - it's also distracting me. I shouldn't get distracted right now. I wonder where I could buy colored contact lenses. Dammit. must. focus.
I was never a morning person. And yet I must be on my way by 6:30 am tomorrow. For that I must be awake by 5 am. And that means I'm not gonna get enough sleep tonight. Oh darn it.
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